Transvestia

all the sights when I really saw one! Just ahead, on a bench, were two boys. I would guess their ages to be about sixteen. They looked rather odd from a distance of about twenty-five yards and as I kept coming closer, my heart started pounding faster and faster. They both were made up to the nth degree, lipstick, eye shadow, pancake, nail polish, the works. They both were smoking but oh, so ladylike, with the legs crossed so daintilly, all the manner- isms of two ladies on the prowl. I was repulsed, but yet, couldn't look away from them. "Oh God, is this what I look like to other people." I thought? Before I could form another thought, one of them said, "Hi, honey, got a minute?" With shaking knees, I hurried on without answering. I couldn't control myself, tears streamed down my cheeks and I thought my life had been projected before me. Is this what I was heading for? I knew they were homosexuals and realizing how much I loved to dress as a woman, I concluded that I must be one too. This haunted me all the way across the country and by the time I got home, I promised myself that my life would start anew and no more dressing. I knew that I really liked girls and couldn't bring myself to look at a man with any kind of desire. By the time I stepped off the bus, I felt much better and quite eager to face the life ahead.

What a wonderful feeling to be home once again! I spent the remainder of the summer, having a good time and dating my future wife. Femininity was very much submerged. True, every once in awhile, I would feel a slight desire arising but I would think back to those two creatures in San Francisco and the urge would pass. I did make a concerted effort to find out more about homosexuality. I came to the conclu- sion that I didn't fit the pattern but then just what was I? One thing for sure, I was unique, there was no one else like me (sound familiar?). About four months after arriving home, I picked up a "Girlie" magazine, and I was once again on the old familiar worn trail. Female impersonation two beautiful

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